Warrior Dash

On September 10, 2011, I ran my second warrior dash in North Plain, Oregon. In my preparation for the race I took several months to prepare my endurance to run 3.15 miles with 11 obstacles. I gradually start my training with half a mile then I slowly increase my distance to five miles. Beside my preparation, I had to race against some friends during the event. The purpose of the race was to have a little fun of competition against each other.  This year we decided to dress up in a military uniform, but the guys decided not wear it except for me. I was committed because I had purchase my outfit already not like the rest of the guys.  They chicken out and they did not purchase their outfit.  I was a little bitter because they did go through with our plan because we were supposed to be a unit.

I was hoping to beat my time from the previous year but I did not beat it.  I was behind my old pace by 10 minutes. I thought the obstacles were going to be the same or similar like last year, but I was mistaken the obstacle was much harder.  By the end of the race I was so sore from my upper body to my legs.  Last year my training was very similar to this year, but I was not expecting a harder obstacle and I did not work on my upper body to help me on some of the obstacles that needed my arm and upper muscles to help me climb over walls.

The best thing about this event is not having the fastest time but to survive the course and have fun at the same time which I did during my race. You should enter a warrior dash near you?

Cactus

Conversations with Other Women

http://www.angiehan.com/2011/01/04/conversations-with-other-women-review/

I've been very busy watching random movies from earlier years that were suggested by my intimate stranger. She suggested several movies, I thought this one was to my liking called, "Conversations with Other Woman".

My thought on this movie is that sometime as much as you love someone, maybe you are not meant to be together? The director tries to show that during this movie I thought. Somehow they were much in love at their younger days but as they age they went their separate ways. I believe they grow apart from each other mentally and spiritually not knowing what they really wanted in life when they were young, so she went searching for her identity. Especially that’s how it appears to me what the actress went through. She went ahead with her life searching and found what she wanted out of life. Perhaps she had a little regret how it ended with her ex lover, now much later in life she wonder how life would turn out if she took another path with her ex lover. So she came back to attend her ex lover sister’s wedding. They found an old spark were they had left off nine years ago, they spent the night together. However the next day as the alcohol wears off they knew that it was not meant for them to be together as they went their separate way. Sometime we make life decision that we have to live with, as how as the heart does not wants to forget the past. 

Crossing Path



By: yonghongzhong

Looking back from where we stand. I wouldn't change a thing about my life to where I've met you on this crazy path that I'm heading. Maybe its only a detour or a wrong turn for me to have cross path with you. This could not have been a mistakes if it has brought me here to be with you. Cause all my roads have led me to you.  My life hasn't been all that smooth, but I don't regret a single day not knowing you.  This path we have walk has taught me what love is and what it's not.  Someone must have planned our two paths to have cross?  I know these detours, dead ends, and endless explorations have led me to you, you were my only destination so where do we go from here. Has it come to a dead end?  I have a weird sensation like I'm hearing you whispering my name. I still hear your sexy voice but you're not really here by my side. Your memory is like a ghost and my heart is it's host. I can still feel you just as close as when we were lying together, every now and then it felt like yesterday. Is it just an imaginary path that was not meant to be, but just to have learn what love really feels like. I'm all by myself in my empty bed feeling cold. There use to be a place you've touched with your love, now I'm feels empty. I can still feel you or is it just a memory of you?

Live.Laugh.and.Love

Tonight, like every other night while I was prepping myself to get ready to go to sleep. It appears as though the room is getting colder then usual. I went over to the thermostat in the living room to verified if the heater was broken or did someone adjusted it, but the setting has not change. Also I checked the individual heater inside my bedroom, no changes on the temperature setting either. However my body continue to felt cold like the temperature was dropping below freezing. I decide to go to bed to warm myself, as I laid underneath my blanket trying to keep my body warm from this coldness. My mind started to wonder off into the dark distance with a blank stare. I found myself thinking back on my life and how things has happen to me. I wonder is their a greater power working for me or against me, I ask myself? Sometime I question and wonder if I could have controls these things or was it destine to happen to me? Is this why I'm feeling cold inside because I feel sometime is going to happen to me (a gut feeling).

As I reflect back on my life, I had such great memories of the past beside my recent divorce after spending almost my entire life with one woman that I have love for so long. OK, not all the memories was not that great there were good and bad times.

In a blink of an eye, I have lost everything I had work so hard to build my family and life. Now my life is in pieces and I have hurt so many individuals especially my kids.

Sometime I wonder why I was unhappy with my marriage life? Did something trigger in me to have made such bad decision or was it a greater power that cause my divorce to happen? I think both part play a major part is my divorce. Maybe its never meant to be understood but to live on and learn from my mistakes. Sometime life throws curves at us for some reason or another. I guess I just need to face it and move on forward with my life without looking back. However I've enjoy every moment of my life that I've spent with all the people that I had encounter and fell in love with. I would do all over again in a heart beat. 

I've learn in these past months that in order to fell in love again. My mind and heart needs to be in one place in order to give my full love to the next person. For awhile I had such a hard time letting go, which hinder me from meeting another potential woman to enter into my life. As of recent months I found myself to have much interest for a particular woman. She has brought joy and happiness to my life. Is this the reason I must learn to live, laugh and love again? I thought, I would never be able to find such happiness again, because of my recent divorce. Why I'm feeling cold again? I feel as though something horrible is going to happen? I feel a cold chill rolling down from the back of my neck to my spine.

I'm getting tired, maybe I'm thinking too much. I just need to rest for now.